Today is the first time I have actually posted anything on here since I graduated High School. It is really amazing how time passes by and the people that you use to think were your friends and cared about you stopped coming around. I mean I know that I could text some of them or that I could get on here and see how everyone is doing...but honestly, conversations are a two way street. Why should I go out of my way to bother someone who, maybe, nine times out of ten, get annoyed by me, or just really do not want anything to do with me...

Why should I be the one that sits alone and is really excited to log on or text someone just to find out that no one messages you or no one wonders where you have been. Why am I the one that sits up all night long even on my days off and doesn't have anything to show for it. How am I going to give someone hope when deep down I am slipping myself. I can not keep doing all of this...

I feel so misplaced and confused...
I feel broken and empty..
Unwanted even..

Why should I feel this way..
And pretend that everything is okay?!


Why does everyone act like they care...


......just to leave you standing in the road as they simply walk away.....


-much broken love
Shawna