.....my feelings....

I want to sleep
In my blood covered sheet
As my world goes black

Now and then
Time was my friend
Until my world came down
I just want the end

Maybe its stupid
Maybe its dumb
That I want to die
But the pain makes me numb

My razor blade is my angel
It shines in the light
And lets the real me
Come back to life..

I think that its funny
That I am going insane
But now my parents wont worry
I enjoy the pain

My mother wont hate me
And wont make me feel
That in this hopelessness
Her love wasnt real

My stepdad wont be bothered
With his good for nothing step daughter
As with her razor blade
She joins the slaughter

Its really amazing
That here I am
Still wanting to die
But no one will notice
Or ask me why..

I should stop writing
Stop with my darken core
I just want to stop hurting
And close my life's door